Born to me?!!!

The other day my son was doing a mischief when i asked him to stop that...

The answer he gave me was 'my wish'

Then i thought intelligetly and answered back to him
'As i gave birth to you it is my wish and not yours'
Swift came his reply'I have taken birth in you so it is my wish'

I was both amused and suprised and enlightened...Amused due to his wit and suprised due to his logic...and enlightened for the answer ....

In movies and in life in general we often think that we have given birth to kids and hence they should listen to us and obey us......

Is it that we have given birth to them .....or is it that 'they' have taken birth....we tend to think that without us they are not there and each and every cell of them belongs to us...Is it really true......

I guess they are born 'through' us and not 'by' us.What i mean by this is we are only channels for making them step on this earth and we should not beleieve or think that we possess whole and sole rights on them and insist that they need to obey us ....as we gave birth to them

....But again if we dont possess them then why the responsibilities....Not sure of it

....but as medium for thier birth we owe to them few things and they are our responsibilities...Here i am not talking abt dharma or indian culture...

Even if we talk about Hindu DharmaOur duty probably lies in given birth to a soul on earth....and trying to make thier life smoother.....
They say soul searches for a proper womb and takes birth....
May be that is the reason why inspite of trying hard some people does give birth.....

School of mischief

The other day i was telling to my kid that i will join him in a school where there are no studies

but the only thing they need to do is play and be mischievous

Really how happy the kids would be ..playing..throwing mud....hitting.....eating chocolates......hitting each other.......crying..complaining.....

In india and in AP especially i donot think the current schools are depriving kids of the happiness they deserve in thier childhood

...homework competition exams IITS EAMCETs ...ohGranted that they passed those exams and became successful in life ....success here means money

But would they get the happiness and silliness they lost....Will they feel that they have led life fullest.....i doubt.....But again with those sacrifices may be country is built...thats a different story

my home

My new home is what i am looking forward to

whenever i see it i feel every inch and every bit of the house..

The process of building ....people involved with it and the hiccups with them

whenever i come across buildings on the road or on TV i examine or think of any good thing in it

which can be implemented in my new home.

sense of feeling that its yours ...i guess brings such a calmness and ownership to your mind...

by the way i know calmness and ownership cannot go hand in hand,...

but thats ok.....there is nothing on earth which does not have probs....

Things I worry about

Some things worry me constantly
Though they dont occupy much of my memory
They run as background services constantly
The ambulance van in traffic is constantly beeping and there is no scope to escape from heavy traffic
Neither does the traffic have the space to give it a space...
I often wonder in some later point of life ... there is a possibility that i may be there inside the van...and my concerned would be worried.....
108 service is a very good service by the govt.,...
Due to this traffic the service may suffer its very purpose ..as it may reach the spot on time

The other thing I worry about is my car driving......i donot yet know how to drive the car..
i am a lazy bug and cannot do things fast...
I should have good space and time to concentrate on such things....
...is it a bahana ..i donno

transition

I guess i am in transition mode as to know the real meaning of life.
Love and hatred....
Hope and depression
Compromise and content
Trying to decide the priorities and the path of life...
Often we hear the word content...
Is content not compromising......on what we think we deserve or want to achieve
Take for example we want certain qualities in a person and we got a different person in life...
should we be content with what we have ....
If we are content then what should we do with the aspirations and ambitions we had for future.
Kill each one of them systematically and finally be dissatisfied...in the name of content
Is content a compromise out of helplessness
Is life for living terms on your own or for sacrifice...for the sake of what and whom...
before or later life what happens you never know
so cant we live the life for our selves.......
Trying to be too disciplined and within circles ...does this bring happiness and purpose to life
I wonder what is the purpose of life finally.....
is it to do ones duty
like on your own terms
help the needy
sacrifice for your family or society or country
what is the purpose of life...

Appraisals

Oh ..These Appraisals..they are so disgusting
We work through out the year ....and get finally they reveal our performance(?!!!)
Actually its business rating and not performance rating that happens due to these appraisals
I get always tensed due to them coz they decide on my efficiency and also next year pay,.......
I feel they are mostly based on personal perception and are not really scientific in thier approach.....

Our Balasubramaniam

Today is a wonderful day for telugu people
Infact all south indian people ......ofcourse to people who dont just hear but listen music
Its Birthday of none other than our beloved balu a.k.a SPB a.ka. Balasubrahmanian a.k.a S.P
He was and is the ruler telugu and tamil music industry
He is a Andhrite my birth but he embraced the tamil industry also
One can call him patala rakshasudu of telugu
He sang almost 40 thousand songs till now a record
My fav song which he sang is sirimalle neeve from the movie Pantulamma followed by Nuvvena Sampangi puvvula Nuvvena(from the movie Guppedu manasulu)

The alapana which he gives in Sirimalle neeve is simply superb and depicts the deeper wound in the heart
Though i dislike some of his overboard expressions in some of the songs
ex:pranuthi pranuthi ..in swathi kiranam..where he unnecessarily changes the tone to suit the protogonist
also atala nitala ...sivudu song in apadbandhavudu where he imposes unnecessary seriousness in the song ....
The sweetness in his voice can be depicted in songs like
Sarikotta cheera neyinchinaanu.....his voice and rendition in this song is excellent
Also similarly Gunde nindaa gudigantalu.......

Some time back when i was travelling back home in a cab i heard the song
Allukonavaa .....song in movie Mazaa i liked SPB in that song

The bhakti rasam in his voice can be well noticed in movie Thyagayya where he sang each and every song very very well.......

I donot like him doing a mimicry of other actors while singing..I think thats not the job of singers and that will send wrong signals for other singers to follow
I have heard in several interviews and read many times that singers like Mano ,Anand,Ramakrishna etc did not get the chances they deserved in the movie industry because of him....not sure though

There is much more to write but want to conclude as of now...
Happy Birthday once again to maa baalasubramaniam .....