Our Howard Roark

Now let me tell you of the most amazing and admiring personality i have met in my life about 9 yrs ago...

9 yrs ago is pretty much big time...isn't it...Do you think i have been closer to him because i know him
No ...he is not of that kind
Though one sits beside him continuously for 7 years
He does not say "Hello" or "How are you" or even "Good Morning" by himself..
Is he arrogant...
No i am not going to tell about those kind of personalities

He is one of the very few in whom i found a great philosophy for life..great detachment towards life...
"Detachment" is his philosophy
There is another word to his philosophy "excellence"
He has decided that whatever comes from him should be excellent...

So he is the most successfull most sought after person and most happiest person who would be happy buying things to his family....

Certainly not...if he were i would not write this article

So why am i writing this and what i want to get by exactly writing this

Having known him for past 9 years...having understood almost every idea of his(which most people dint) and most of his philosophy towards his journey..

Those of you who might be thinking how i understood him when he did not speak to me...
It shows in actions and little words he speaks....
He is outstanding in his commitment...logical thinking analytical approach

To the dumb and stupid questions i have asked him over a period time..
he never explained me very elaborately...just one word or a sentence would be his reply...
and they spoke paras about the fundamentals of the concept...

He was often mistaken to be selfish ..self centered...arrogant...

I understood him.completely

Having journeyed with him silently for so many years
Lot of things go without saying....

His subtle humour which could make you laugh and laugh and brings smile to you whenever you recollect

Do you think he was a nerd or something
No...according to his close being he was the most jovial and friendly guy

He is the most systematic and disciplined person i have ever seen...

One day i got a mail from him at 3 AM I asked him why does he wake up so early
He replied that ...it is a mail sent before sleeping and that he had problem with sleep sometime ago when he slept just 5-6 hrs a week

About 7 yrs ago he was with daughter when he was standing on a ball playing with her
he slipped suddenly and hurt his backbone

According to his own people,Once he was diagnized of a fracture was to go to a computer
search about the fracture and explain to his family "this is where it fractured and this is what the doctors are going to do"
Isn't that called detatchment....!!!


Mind like a windows system...needs rebooting and might crash if its not rebooted atleast once in two days...

Everything is so good about him..isnt it?!!!!

What has this given to him ...
It made him over loaded ...he started every comment and every task positively and responded to it ...no matter what part of the day and which part of the hour it was...

He would delegate but the fellows never understood his logic nor got the point and finally the work was again handled by him

When the power of mind overpowers the body...does n't it collapse..hasn't it happened to swami vivekananda?!!!


His BP and cholestrol are up..
there is hardly blood circulation between his back and his legs
People who have gone to visit him say he is unable to walk
There are deposits in his heartttttt.........and he needs to be operateddddddddd.....
All the over work load...a continous non-sleep work load
a continuous smoking...all took toll on him

Please see that i have written "People who have gone to visit him"...
and you saw it right...

I was always scared of him ...out of respect...
in the name of consoling i didnot dare to visit and disturb him....
No he would not like it...
He does not like sympathy...he is very egotist ...you know...

All i want to ask him is
"Why why why...through your excellence didnot make you understand that there is a mid way between commitment and getting overloaded
Why didnot your wisdom teach you that you are actually hurting yourself for ever...by not standing up and giving up
Why are you so egoistic to not admit your fatigue
Why are you so inefficient in not taking care of your health..

Did you think you could alone pull the boat
Did you think you alone could make it sail
Did you think you could withstand all the odds of nature
Did you think that without you nothing works and the customers office would be shut down...
Did you think that you are the only guy committed...


No you were wrong....you were wrong....
Work on computers is not the only way a man can do in his life...
I always wanted you to write...you spoke hardly
Though i knew there were infinite thoughts ...you never expressed them....
I was able to get in bits and pieces ...But still fall short in putting them together...

So i plead and pray..please go away ...from your computers....
go away sleep peacefully
get healthy...
take care of your family
There are lot other things to do and go....

From Not so intelligent
Sudha

cheetah

Recently most disturbing news which i am hearing on Television is that of
Cheetahs coming to the residential area....

Now whenever i see this news it comes to my mind why are the cheetahs running out of jungles and coming to our areas....

I feel that it is the other way round..may be we are trying to live in thier areas

With the increase in population and dawn of real estate culture we are not finding place to live and we are continuously expanding the residential areas..

On the other side the forests which the cheetahs live in are occupied my tribals
maoists etc etc...not sure of other things

This might have made cheetahs having no space to live and no food ...hence they are fleeing to our areas

And we the humans are now afraid of them now...
try to deactivate them and send them to zoos and forests again...

Is there anything we can do...

birds and fish

For the first time i have bought 2 birds and 2 fish for my house

I am usually averse to raising pets at house
But not able to stop my kids...zidd
i had to ..

Since yesterday i have been telling him i will take you to shop with birds and fish
Woke up a bit late as it was saturday and the first thing he asked me was when shall we go to that shop

I sid 12 o clock then i said 3 then i said 4 PM
and finally me my kid and my helper laxmi started to the shop

The shop is at Allwyn X roads...
I have been watching this shop for the past few weeks
and had always my kid in mind when i passed through it...

My husband and father in law were away today...so no intense cooking today..
That made me into some good mood and wanted to do something different

Cooking eats away my energy and time ....every saturday and sunday
Actually wanted to do much more things today but landed up just completing this...

Now the shop where this birds and fish are sold is approx 6-8 kms from my house
Though i have a car at house i cannot drive
and as my husband is away i need to take an auto
To get any shared auto we have to walk 1 km
So three of us set on a walk and finally reached Nizampet X road
I was scared of taking my helper laxmi more than my kid ..
The reason is that since she is from a village ..she is not used to this halla gol of traffic and sound ...and often has nausea and vomiting...

So i was checking if she was alright

Getting down at nizampet x road..crossed the road..
The traffic was huge as it was peak hour...

Got any other shared auto and went to allwyn x roads..
My kid was restlessly searching for the shop...

I warned to him not to look at everything and ask me to buy in the shop
The shop wallas are best pscychologists...psychiatrists..they can easily guess whether the person who has come will buy or will not....will bargain..or shall we reduce
they will calculate the desperateness of children ....wifes curioisty...
they are masters in that...

Hence warned my kid against it....
outside the shop there were yellow and blue colored birds ..including parrot etc
and on one side there were white and grey colored rabbits
inside the shop they had acquariums of variou sizes

I went into the shop and told that this is the first time i was buying hence needed minimum sized bowl and couple of fish and food for it...
everything of it costed me 185..
That was quite a cheap amount...
I was happy
Now the birds they were costly according to me...2 birds costed around 350
and the cage costed 500 and the food 75
So everything for 925
with great difficulty finally bargained for 800
and got ..
Now i was a bit embarassed of having spent that much money on 2 little birds
How would my family receeive it
will ppl think that i am flaunting my money too much
Saw a beggar...was thinking that these rich people cry for giving us 1 rupee and buy birds..and care abt them

Why do human beings care for non-humans rather than humans...

i warned to my helper not to reveal its price if anybody asks in the auto
none of them asked except one woman
immediately after she saw the cage..first question was where and how much...
i was prepared not to answer..so shall i remain silent if when she asked
or shall i say i am not interested in answering your question
or..i dont usually reveal prices..
I just ignored her question..she put it again...i ignored again and looked at other side....

why i did not like that question?
May be i myself am not convinced abt the cost....

we slowly got down at Nizampet village
walked 1 km again

remembered the details of maintainence from the shop guy
while my kid and helper were busy putting water into fish bowl and
giving food to birds...
i prepared lemon juice...

Me and my kid and helper sat outside...
Outside with cool breeze at own house
with glass of lemon water....

I thank all nature....for giving me such soothing and comfort
After hearing all traffic nonsense..returning back to home is truly relaxing...

My quotes and beliefs

Life is God

Support is not stopping other person do the task..it is the initiative you take to make the other person complete the task

You donot become big when others become small

Theres a lot of difference between existing,surviving and living

A person who does not turn an evolution atleast 0.00000000000001th percent is actually useless...

Do what is needful not what is needed

If you are helping others..lead thier simple life...then what are they doing...(Only applicable for non-friends)